18th Oct 07
Thursday, October 18, 20075:22 PM
Today`s the worst day. woke up with a sinking and revolting feeling in my stomach. I dread every step to school. The nightmare still happened. My results suck.I suck.Darn.I cried so many times today.For so many times.I tried to stop the tears like i always do. That didn`t work this time around.They just rolled down from my overwhelming eyelids.I lay my head down on the table.They stream across my face, on the table too.Nothing is going right.Nothing at all.Teachers hate me now, my results suck, my parents are killing me by their treatment.Its like a prison at home.A prison.Its nothing but just a shelter and a bed for me to sleep in.I hate things this way. I hate it.Its just a big nightmare,only that its true.Please be here with me. I feel so alone.Condemned from the world.Vivian Chan Ker Ling is dead. She wants to Live, but the world codemns her, she just dosent measure up.I just want to have fun,forget all the unhappy events, just be happy and free.But that seems so impossible for now.I feel so down, I just keep crying whenever i start my thoughts running.heck.Stop this.I want all this to S-t-o-pthanks so much to everyone who gave me the bumble bees! and the messages behind it.they`ll always be close to my hearts. I`m really touched.Thank you everyone. ty..,so much.ty for the encouragement my dear friends.And to those who admit and bravely raised their hands, and also stood up for me during the bibiana-thgy. You guys rock.thank you.I`m real touched.Thank you to all those who weathered through with me.U guys are real pals.Tears again.Out of everything, because of everything.I want to be happy.just want to scream it out loud and cry it out loud in your arms.hold me tight.
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