I feel like screaming out loud.

for once.

Life sucks.

It really does.

I close my eyes, and allow the nightmares to drive through me.

I feel weak, I feel vulnerable.

But I have to stay the strong woman people think I am.

However,nowadays, I think people have begun to see my vulnerable side.

To know that I do cry.

To feel my mood swings.

I'm sorry,people, if I vented my frustration on you.

I didnt mean to.

Its just that,

I feel alone. And helpless.

I feel, like drowning.

the wrongs cant be undone, the hurt cant be saved. Nothing could erase the scars I left burried in you.

I just wanna slit myself.

I want everything to be okay again.

I know you'll never see all this, for you swore not to come to my blog again.

But I hold on to the hope that you will.

Hope?

It seems just a substance,just a pigment of a sudden pleasure.

It'll drop down into nothingness,leaving us in an abyss of disappointment and intense fear.

Everytime I think of it, a paroxysm of pain will shoot through me,making me wrench at the roots of my hair,and to collaspe into a heap,tears streaming down my face.

Please,let everything be alright again.

Let my future be succinct.