Emptyness.
Everyday just gets worse.
It seems that the nightmares are never-ending.
Exams are coming.
Inching here day by day.
I fear, and my stomach turns into a tight knott.
People are doing so well.
And I'm doing so freaking lousy.
Kill me, man.
It seems that I'm sad everyday.
People ask and say
"ehh,cheer up larh!"
"ayioh why so emo?!"
"everything will be fine larh."
"dont lidat larh."
"ehh my life worse than you can!"
"smile larh."(pulls my face up)
If only they knew what's going on.
How I feel.
It seemed like i lost the whole world. All the problems banged against me like a strong gust of wind, so hard that i couldn't find any strength to carry on living.
I need you here so bad.
Sigh. But..
Yeah.
I'm happy you've done well. Seeing that smile on your face today, I'm glad that you're smiling at last.
But sad that I never made you smile like that. I think.
I'm glad that you're happy.
Have I become so numb to all the bad stuff happening? Have I also become, more prone to tears?
I'm cracking apart.