Delusion.
Things will never be the same again.
I wonder it you guys out there are getting tired of encouraging me, tired of reading my emo boring posts, and getting sick of my personality right now.I'm sorry ><>
Thanks,guys, all of you, who made me smile while readin through your hilarious tags. (:
Exams are more or less over. What's left is oral. Oh well.
What I fear of now, is the getting back of results.
Everytime I fear, and start to think the horrible things that will befall me, I push those thoughts away from my mind quickly,shivering.
I dont want to think about bad things anymore. Its just bloody tiring.
The more i think, the more I fear.
Vivian,you're cracking apart.
I'm meanwhile trying to stay strong.
Trying to bottle whatever it is up.
Trying to mask a smile.
masks are good, they get you away from questions and somehow numbs your heart.
trying to stay strong no matter what happens.
I smile sadly when I think of you, and the times that we had.
'Cos I wonder if things will ever be the same again.
I guess not.
Sometimes I just wanna scream "WHY. WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THAT. DO U EVEN CARE IF I DIED!?"
Then I just smile, and think that I'm silly to even entertain such a thought.
Haha.
I know that you're hurting right now, and need time.
=)
I shall just sigh. And keep grabbing hold to every fragment of memory, and hope that they will revive.
Sometimes I just wanna cry. But held back.
Just keep holding back, and I'll be numb.
Random post. Will keep posting. Dont really feel like talking today.