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VIVIAN chankerling
Turning 16. 14 March 94. commonwealthsec 4/3. Singing remains to be the best thing to do in life. Oreoz rocks on like noone else.
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i hope i survive.
Monday, May 12, 20088:49 PM
The flame's last fire.


the last straw, the last BLOW, the flame's last fire.
Went off,in a gust of wind.
from fire, the flame fizzled and turned to ice.
So cold, so scary.

Today, I have been dealt so many blows continuously, I felt like I might die.
My facade kept strong,though. And I stood strong.
Inside, I felt like dying.
Giving up on everything.

Why,is god doing this to me.

Went about my usual duties. Tried,to keep myself occupied these days. Dont wanna think about things.
However,when night falls, I would just pray that the fatigue would drag me to sleep.

gut wrenching heart burning bed turning. cant get no sleep tonight.

God. I dont know if I have the courage to sing again, or say that I CAN sing, ever again.
Were we that bad?
How can one produce such an amazing voice? I wonder, looking at my seniors.

Flunking. I'm flunking my papers. And I'm gonna have to face the music. Kill me. someone.
Saw how my parents yell at my sis for her results. Afraid that it'll be my turn soon. How am I gonna survive--meet the parents sessions, blahblah, all the crapshitexz?

Only much worser. They cant seem to understand.
I cringe at the frightening thought.

Shite. What am I to do now?

The facade's becoming stronger and stronger. I hope I can delude myself.
I'm tired,though, Im really tired. Just dont wanna go on anymore.
I'm at a lost, of what to do. Fear overwhelms me now and then. That feeling is so horrible its tearing my soul apart, and nobody can feel what I'm feeling.

Why am I having so many bad days?
When can my luck ever turn around?

I sink into an abyss of pain.
Why am I so STUPID.

Scratch at chances.
sing the pain.
Dont leave me,
In the cold again.

Someone come save me. Bring me back to life.

KICK ME. c'mon. But i'm already on the ground.
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