not the same.

o the depressed souls.

Monday, May 19, 200812:35 PM

Nothing left, so where's the hope?

I just realised, that actually, there are alot of depressed souls around.
They are too, hanging in there.
Maybe all of us could form a committee yeah?
LOL

there seemed to me nothing left, just me and myself.

Cheerup, to those who are sad, things will blow over very soon.
To those frequent taggers at my blog.
I <3>
thanks,so much, for tiding with me through everything, giving me encouragements that make me smile and move on.
Yes, mummy, I shall close my eyes and imagine we're debating there and then. Let's hope that this wish will really come true.

I seem to be floating aimlessly.
I wanna gather myself up again, wanna continue to fly.
But nowadays, I find myself finding things to do, trying to occupy myself, as if I'm afraid of facing something.
But what?

Oh yeah, results, problems, and more problems.

I just want ALL THE BAD STUFF TO END.
to be FLUSHED DOWN THE GODDAMNED TOILET.

I wanna smile again.
I want you to smile again.
I want everyone to be happy, go out, have fun. smile, carefree.
Away from this abyss of pain and misery,in which everyone is captured in.

I sit down. I think. I try to sort myself out.
But I dont seem to be able to do so.

I'm afraid, i suppose. Yes, I am. What am I afraid of?
I dont know. Everything?
Losing everything?
yes.

I wanna succeed in the future, I dont wanna fail.
I wanna learn, I wanna feel the top of the world.
I wanna hang out with my friends, wanna have fun.
I wanna spend time with you, wanna be with you.
I wanna bring happiness to those around me.

please tell me that what we have now will last forever.
please tell me that you need me to live as much as i need you to.
please tell me that i mean everything to you.
please hold me firm and tell me everything is okay.
i need your assurance.

I'm afraid. that the guns of hurt will blast our hearts.

stay.
build our dreams together.

I cant live, I cant dream.
I cant breathe, just wanna scream.

wanna have fun.

Pressed tight against a corner.
tried to grip the wall.
stars burn out to nothing
as they fall.

What the hell is wrong with me.
Vivian, what is wrong with you, you bitch.

Bless all those caught in the natural disasters in myanmar and Si Chuan.
Bless you all.
And bless the commonwealthians who donated $$$.
I had no idea you guys had so much compassion in you all.
I'm touched.
Imagine, those people dying and fighting for their survival.
fighting for their lives, fighting away tears.
every min, every sec, while we're here, playing computer games and blogging and watching the TV.
I hope people live.
Poor souls.
C'mon, there's people OUR age! who had such a bright future ahead.
And this disaster ruined it all, tore their dreams apart.

bless them.
and oh, I found ants crawling out of their holes in my kitchen the other day.
they seem eager to escape.
Hmm. Does this signify another disaster?

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