I've tried to stay strong, i really did.

Fuck. what's wrong with me.
I tried to stay strong. I really did.
SMILE. :D
Fuck.
I hate being sick. the fever and sore throat and flu is getting into me.
And I could only let the heavy coughs wreck my body w/o helpin it.
Suzhou is coming in 6 days and we're screwed.
I've got nothing to say.
Why am I being such a crappy-ass?
why's the stupidity in me refusing to fade away into a corner of me?
Why.
bane of my existence.
I'm too afraid. kill me.