not the same.

;disappointment

Sunday, August 31, 20082:30 PM

to be able to touch you through whatever's holding us apart.

I came, I saw, I screamed.

Well, that's the reaction I had for my report card. Cos it's FUCK.

I thought I did okay, even though I'm not giving any high hopes.

Why, as my intellect gone down by so much. I'm becoming dumber by the sec.

Heck. I dont wanna care anymore. Just do it. NIKE.

And so, the hols are here. So far, its been plain boring. I WANT AVRIL. but im broke. ahaha.

I want. Out. Somebody 'jio' me out please.

AND I MISS U LOADS.

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;long time.

Friday, August 29, 200810:07 PM

Rarely, Barely.

DRAMA COMPETITION ROCKED.
Alright, everything couldnt have been possible without everyone's co-operation.
Thanks, Alex, Michael, and the whole team.
Thanks Reece, Ridhwan,Ranelle, Aaron, Marcus, Kuangyi, Melissa, Jasmine,Shujuan, Khialynn, Valerie..and even..Junyang, for making the whole show successful. I know you all didnt wanna act bimbo-itic, or act romantic, or as servants, but you guys co-operated with us. THANKS GUYS I LOVE Y'ALL. <3

We thought we were screwed. Even till the day before the competition, we couldnt rehearse pass the first scene. And yet, the next day, we could perform. And WON FIRST. And we were saying "RV leh.." and "Commonwealth..6th place!"
We thought we couldnt make it, but we did. LOOK, the power of commonwealthians.
Seriously, it wasnt easy.
I think, I did the least.
Crapp. And I had severe cramps on that day. So unbearable, and just collasped when I got home. Mum had to pull me to the Doc's to have an injection.

Anyway, this whole experience is really memorable. ;D

Okay, so today's teacher's day. Reached school at 6.30 to help out in council, to distribute presents[gift bags + muffins] to the teachers. Pretty cool, as we walked around smiling and making the teachers smile too. Were in high spirits. Singing and crapping. Yesterday, binbin, nicole and I went to qy's house to bake cookies to the teachers. It was HARD. like, omfg. In the end, nicole had to stay overnight to finish the wrapping and all. Then today, we distributed the cookies to the teachers. and omg 2/4 is SO cute. they gave STELLA an UMBRELLA with their greetings on it. Cool aye?

Feel kindaf guilty, since I didnt make it for any of the baking sessions. And im in the baking comm. Stupid chinese program. Waste my time. URGH.
And its like, I hardly did anything at all. Frustrated.
Baking comm got praised cos their muffins were super nice. Teachers are asking for recepies.
So..we had the celebration. All put up by the council board. Games, songs, performances...etc.
Its kindaf amazing, aint it? cos its like the council board, are just full of students, and we can hold such a big event all together. hmm. After the celebration, went to cut cake for the council teachers.

WENT BACK TO PRI SCH. Was so worried cos I thought I had CCA. In the end it was cancelled.
Uh-hmm. So bus-ed back with the other peps-ians, including Divesh. Went back to school, saw lots of people. Its been such a long time, and its like, everyone changed. I can hardly recongnise some of the people mann. AND. Nigel came back from UK! just to see us xD He's flying off tmro. Hmmm. He changed so much too. Wish him all the best. So we crapped, and played. With pepsians, of course its SPORTS. So we bballed and badmintoned and just..had fun.

Meeting with each other again is so great. Its been such a long time, and only at events like these then only we can see each other.
Otherwise, its everyone being so busy with their lives to have time for times like this.
Memorable, happy. But at the same time, sad to let go everytime. Omg missed sally super much.

Played till late. Went home. And so, that's t'cher's day for you.

I dont know if I forgot to add any details, though.

Its the Sept hols. And I bet it aint gonna be great AT ALL.
Geez. Homework. Projects. Going back to the horrible school campus.
Definitely SUCKY. D;

Sobz.

no matter what happens, i'm always proud of you, and always here, supportin you.

I need a break.

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;just like that, it made me pull through

Tuesday, August 26, 20089:22 PM

Life is..busy now'days.

Lots to do, but little time.

Went to Nanhua High today. Sat in the audi for a few hours, bored, listening to endless presentations. Instead I could have been in school helping out in baking, or attending our 2nd last rehersal for wed's competition. URGH. Irritatin.

Now'days, I'm lookin at the brighter side of life, 'cos everythin relationshipy is fine. And that helped me pull through everything. =)

Tired. Having a bad cough plus sore throat. Cant do anything right.

I've been dreamin and staring into space alot lately. geez.

Drama Competition on Wed. Are we ready? Sorry I've not been contributing as much as I'm supposed to. I let you all down. Thanks for everything, people. Just go for it. Its TMRO. THE day.

Nugget, dont be sad! things will be alright, I believe.

And oh, teachers day's coming. Woah, time flies, I guess.

Busy busy and I;m proud to announce that the posters around the school are made by ME! ;D xD

Love, May my dreams come true.

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TERRIBLE MISUNDERSTANDING

Wednesday, August 20, 20089:27 PM

LOL GUYS. this needs to be cleared.
My previous EMO post is 'cos I was feeling wrecked up 'cos of fatigue and cos there are so many things going on.

we did NOT breakup!
Oh for the love of god if i find out which IDIOT spread that STUPID rumour i swear im gonna punch his/her face in.

WE ARE STILL TOGETHER. =) always.

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breaking down.

Monday, August 18, 20085:52 PM

ENOUGH!

I cant take this anymore.

All this.

So many things.

So many things, and so little time to solve each one.

Poeple don't like me, I dont care anymore. Things cannot be done, I dont wanna care anymore. I'm tired. I'm collasping.

I say these things now, but everyone knows that i'll get back on my feet again.

It aint as easy as it looks.

hurt and failures gets deepeer each time. I'm a big failure.

Often, I want to cry, but all the time I keep silent. Swallow, and continue.

Broken dreams, take everything.

Today is one day in which I sit infront of the computer and tear silently while nobody's lookin.

For just a little while.

Breaking down.

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hope for a better day;

Thursday, August 14, 20087:45 PM

Everything seems so far away

I'm actually missing, even though I see everyday. You.

Oh well. Life is currently boring, and tiring. Dont know what to do. Deprived of sleep.

cant seem to remember anything that happened recently.

Cant cope. ;(

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you'll never want daring advertures to end.

Monday, August 11, 20083:55 PM

Jumble fumble fun-ble =)

Ice-skating rink.

Japanese Village (ri ben cun)

Qy's mum treated the few of us to a super ex + good meal.

Nanjing peeps trudging in Bugis.

Xian Lun and Lingwei? Pity xianlun's buddy.

The three organisers who got everything purrfect xD

Eating Local Delights

WAIT.and WAIT. for ungentlemanly guys. who are LATE.

Piggy-back <3

times two!

Traffic Light :D

Qiuying and Jingyi

Nasrul and grace and me

ahahaha.

High Emcees.

Hmmm. I've not posted for too long. My packed schedule is gonna do me in and wreck me.haha.

Nanjing people came over. I was dreading it. But it turned out that it wasnt so bad at all! okay, my buddy was worse, but other great people and events made everything..great!

Nanjing Slang:

Chou1--Slap, Chuo1--poke, Chun2 Pu3--innocent, Shu3 fu4--innocent(refering to guys,in this case, Jingyue,according to qy's buddy), Jian1 zha4--cunning,witty. And dont forget the Chinese accent as well :D

We hanged out with them. Pretty cool. On the first night, after a great farewell ceremony which we didnt screw up, all went home to watch the Olympics OC. Very cool.

The next morning, we took a long trek to QianHu fish farm,with hmm,not such a pleasant experience under the burning heat. Then, we went to Bugis, to JalanJalan,shop a lil here and there. Ate lunch too. Qy, Jingyue and I were in 'one team' and the other guys in another, and the other girls in another. We couldnt possibly move in a big group of 40,aye? So hmm, our group did the best! :D If I should say so myself. Guys group did the worst. xD We bought super alot of local delicacies for them, and hmm, they enjoyed it. In the evening, we went to watch 'Mummy and the tomb' or whatever the title is called. Till late. We only left JE at 11? Aye.

Next morning, qy's mum took my buddy and qy's to some historical sites. I stayed in Qy's hse. Jingyue was also with us. In the noon, qy's mum took us out for a superb meal at Ri Ben chun, Japanese village and spent a hefty 166 bucks on the whole meal. hmmm. Then,we took our buddies ice-skating. Fell, skidded, slide. Wow. Super fun. And they really enjoyed it. Went to Vivo to meet the big grp and after the buddies ate their dinner, we sent them back to the resort they were staying at. Nice. And we lost our way. xD Cos its at Labrador, super ulu. We were singing all the way. Finally found it, said our last goodbyes. I loved qy's buddy best. Cute and fun. Her minature eyes and her doll-like face, with every movement so interesting to watch. Will miss her indeed. She left a long letter for qy. And when we saw it, we cried. LOL Daniel's buddy, a guy, cried cos he couldnt bear to leave daniel. HAHA.

Alright, Then once again late in the night, we went to Vivo to take OUR dinner. Then we walked at the deck for awhile and went home.

The whole exchange prog is over, just like that. We've had so much fun together. I'm afraid that the bonds and bridges of friendships will break,(mostly refering to spore buddies) I dont want them to. Haha so the alliance 'NJ grp' has formed. LOL. I'll miss this, alot, and look back at the fond and precious mem'ries that I never wanna forget. The feeling was so carefree, so bonded, so..great. Wow, is all I have to say. I dont know how to say everything out here in words.

BACKTRACK.._______

NDP 08. Ahaha that was one high moment. Was emcee, and was super high on stage. Loved it when we went down to the audience and threw stuff to them (and AT them, by accident, duh) whoosh its like a whole rush of adrenaline and excitement. Hopping and Dancing on the stage and everything. Acting like a total high freak. All this, not planned at all! Hope that we did bring them joy and the national day spirit. Pretty cool, great experience. Thanks for the chances.

PRESENT____

Its back to reality now. And reality sucks. I prefer to sit there and think of my dreams and mem'ries. And what I wanna do.

Homework is piling on top of me. But I dont give a damnnnnnn. :D

Right now, I dont wanna think about anything. Just wanna go back and dive into my Breaking Dawn novel. So sweet, so..beautiful. Wish that was reality. hmmm.

Dreams, are there for you to fufil them.

And I have so many things to do, and so little time. Frustrated.

"what do I look like? Wizard of Oz? You need a brain? you need a heart? Go ahead, take mine. take everything I have"

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Since when did ii become so physically weak?

Saturday, August 02, 20088:23 PM

Classmate.

So random,but yeah, this is feifan recently. Our migrated classmate whom we're all missing. Who's leading a new life now. He told me to let you all see what he's like now, so i'm posting the picture. Hmm guys, do you think he's leading a better life than us? That's hard to tell, I guess.

there're pros and cons. Anyway, he says he misses all of us damn much. He's afraid that we'll forget him. HAHA. IMPOSSIBLE,big guy. So, dont worry!

And I realise, danger lurks at every corner in school.

And some seniors are really scary. I think I'm not in good books of the seniors. that's..definitely not good.

Current status: Sick with flu cough sorethroat fever. Since when have I become so weak physically? eat me.

Nanjing people are coming, coming.

I'm dreadin and dreadin. :/

Not looking forward to next week.

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Hustle and Bustle through everything, with no time left to think.

Friday, August 01, 20089:32 PM

Trying to be hyper. to the extent.

Right now, I'm just trying to muddle through life and hope that each day brings me something good. Busy times, and I try not to think too much.

-got selected to be ndp emcee officially.
-am so tired.
-am gonna be with the Nanjing people. cos they're coming on Mon. [Crap] I'm dreading every moment.
-dunno wassup for teacher's day.
-miss choir.

Its like, everytime i see the choir sing, i'll feel a nagging feeling in my heart, cos i WANT so much to sing with them. I dont wanna feel detached and insignificant cos im emcee, cos im not performing. D;
I'll always love choir, and i'll always be loyal to this big family.
=)

Everything is becoming so scary, and so surreal.
i'm afraid.

I just hope that everything will go well for me. :x hope, and pray.
Right now, I'm having a super sore throat, dry throat, cough, flu. God. Not again.
What's wrong with me!? [ah--choo]

Sometimes, I feel like a failure.
I look at those around me, even look at sy,
so accomplished.
I look at myself and feel inferior.

I <3>
She piggy-backed me tday! and so did QY. HAHA.

I just wanna sing till the end of time.

And I just dont get why some teachers are so bias.
They just love to pick on certain people, who didnt even do anything wrong at all.
today, looking at her small body wrecked with silent tears, qy and I felt such a strong pain in our hearts. its like, we couldnt do anything to help her at all.
I dont get why some teachers are such losers and bitches.
Cant they just leave us alone.

Lol that's all for tday's rants.
-Drama competition in about 3 weeks.
-NDP next week.
-Crap.

dont let me wake up alone.

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