crawling in my skin,these facts are sinking in.
Okay, not trying to be emotional or anything,
but life's sucky, really.
And...i realise, im losing all my close friends. qiuying,hannah,nicole,iris and so much more..i dont wanna lose y'all.
Because of factors i cant change, like my parents, im losing my friends.
And feel left out, really.
I dont even think they want me around anymore.
I dont know.
just feel..lonely.
And some-sort that im an 'extra' presence in class, within friends or anywhere, and not needed at all.
feel like a useless bum.
Feel sad cos of that.
The world against me.
And I realise that im way behind.
I did sci relief revision paper, didnt know how to do any qs AT ALL.
Did math past year paper, didnt know how to do any qs AT ALL.
Got back chinese bao zhang bao dao, and had tons of mistakes.
Did Eng summary and compre and got so many wrong answers.
Got back hist ct results not too long ago and i sucked.
OMFG. WHAT'S GOING WRONG WITH ME.
under intense pressure to beat my cousin, and to save my skin.
Even though i know the right way is to compete with myself.
Thanks,guys, for all the encouragements.
at least i know that people still read my blog and knows how i feel.
Finally, the relationship is going smooth,and i can finally smile.
this's going to be the encouragement to pull me through the difficulties im facing now.
--you, SY, with me through it all.
that's enough for all my happiness.