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Friday, November 28, 20089:41 PM

Haha that's me and mama. xD random pic i promised to upload eons ago.
did i upload it before? couldnt remember oh well.
Family's going to m'sia till wed. Except me.
ha-ha. Hope that stayin in spore will be worth it.
chalet's coming. i really hope it wont be a disappointment. last time as a class, and its a first for council.
2/3 please keep the class in your hearts.
though we do lots of grippin, but i believe that we do love each other at points of time.
remember the funny times we had together.
remember how we worked together as one whole team.
really remember those.
hope that for this chalet, everyone can put aside any differences for once, and just have fun together. but i dont think it's gonna happen. oh well.
kindaf lookin forward to hanging out with council people too. xD wacky fun.
echo after me!
In commonwealth!
the gals are very tough.
but if you take a closer look, they look like currypuff!
[that's still my fav HAHA]
woah 08's almost over. this year hadnt been easy. there were lotsa ups and downs and big tidal waves. well there're lotsa mem'ries. lotsa lessons. lotsa experiences.
hafta remember them, to keep going.
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;losin it
Monday, November 24, 20089:08 PM
All I know--time is a valuable thing.
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings.
Watch it count down to the end of the day.
The clock ticks life away.

busybusy.everyone's busy.no time for pleasures?shit.

it felt so good to see you again.
it's been, too long.




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camp + prom
2:02 PM









Okay i didnt take too many pictures with people cos i was on duty most of the time and i was kindaf tired and in a foul mood. haha.

Prom night's kindaf sweet. you see your seniors having fun, dressed up nicely. this year's theme was 'Street VS Style'. the door gifts and all that are damn cool. o.o The Paegant went on smoothly too, and it's nice to watch. watch them answer qs, dance, catwalk. etc.

Well, pre-prom preparation was rushing. we had to string and blow and tie balloons, pack goodybags, etc. the alumni definitely did alot for this prom. Saw wensong! he was back to perform.

Sharon was the prom queen and okay im not sure of the guy's name. i think it's Azaz sth. oh well.

Girls were pretty, guys were looking cool. everyone was chatting,eating and having fun.

Well, and we were behind doing our duties. I think next year's prom will be more exciting 'cos it's our direct seniors attending it. Gonna miss the sec 4s,though. ):

Prom ended damn late. and we lost our way. reached home only at 1 plus. Damn tired. Rafeek said i 'looked pooped'.

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CAMP WAS FUN. yeah. it seriously was. though the conditions were dirty gross and horrifying, everything was still beautiful. well i didnt get to take any pics of the camp, though i wish i could. hope the teachers could send us pictures.

On the first day, we met and went to the train station. crapped and made hell lota noise on the train cos we were too excited to sleep. reached at 2am and checked into a motel which contained spiders, roaches and lizards. Wonder how we survived. in the morning, we packed up and travelled to the caves. Gua kota gelanggi. it's my first time at the cave and it was beautiful. we dumped our stuff into the tents, went for absailing. well it's my first time and i screwed up. Kept losing my footing at the rocks. hmmmm. was rather unglam while coming down haha. We played some bondin games and went for caving.

Caving was fun. We scrambled over rocks. initially it was rather tough as we werent very used to the mud and terrain. but after that we were so used to it and were 'experts' already. We climbed. we crouched, we dived and crawl.. It was fun. We were so used to using torchlights to assist outr vision. We went to a few different caves. I never knew caves could be so beautiful. We helped each other too, as a team, and that was really sweet. Just when we finished the caving, it rained! heavily. We sank into all the mud and terrain as we backtracked and went back to where we came from. it was really coming down and we could hardly see. we helped and supported eachother all the way and that was really cool. In the end, while walking back to the campsite, we jumped into puddles of mud and played.

At night, ate and wrote our reflections, [were still wet 'cos even after we bathed, we still had to get wet again while walkin from the toilet to the cave which was a long way]. Slept early in the cave. Had light only until 12am. after that it was up to the oil lamps and that went out quickly too, so torches came in handy. otherwise, you couldnt even see ur fingers.

2nd day, main activity was White Water Rafting @ Gopeng! :D we didnt stay in the cave anymore, but travelled to a village like resort which was more cozy, but in which the water from the water tap is brown and there are big hairy spiders. water rafting's the best. to get to the rapids, all of us stood in lorries and went along the path. to feel the wind on your face was damn fun. and everyone shouted 'DUCK!' when there was a tree branch in our way. super nice. but the sec 3s went in the van. so we went down the river rapids.

My raft's me, shanyi, zenon, divesh, miss faith and qiuying. So we were really lucky, as in, my raft's all the fun people. At first i was thinking 'ayiah we wont fall into the water de'. Then on the 2nd rapid, my raft hit a rock and the whole raft tilted sideways and everyone on the right side fell out, plunged deep into the water. that's me sy and zenon. I saw another raft beside us fall. so we floated down the river. we had to swim hard against the current. i was damn scared. lols. i drank some river water. I was near a big rapid then the instructor jumped in and saved me. phew*

Heart thumping. Well, then when i was safely on the river bank, the instructor went to save another boat which hit the same rock as us, but this time, the whole boat went over and the people were trapped under the boat. I couldnt see whose raft it was. I think it was Idris's. oh well. then it took awhile for them to catch the rope to be safe. whoo at that time i was like 'omg so scary'. then we went on. my team was the only team to survive the toughest rapid of the river!! three cheers! it was a tough rapid and all of us fell on each other which paddlin. painful, but we survived! the others who tried that rapid all went over.

After that during break time, we splashed around water and had fun in the cold water. then we went on on our journey. We had fun with our instructor and before we knew it, the trip ended. and we were greeted by those who already were on land cheering "welcome to gopeng this way please!" Well, then it rained AGAIN. funny and lucky that everytime only after the activites it rains. well this time a few sec 2s went in the van, including me. sacrifice! The others got to enjoy the lorry ride in the windy rain. But being in the van aint so bad. We sang, cheered. had fun. and when we came down we booed those on the lorry and made up a cheer.

"echo after me [echo after me], never go the lorry, we should go the lorry, van van very hot, rain rain so shiok" then we made a funny face. HAHA. then everyone came to tao pok us.

Didnt do much for the rest of the day. had fun. sang songs etc etc. did ALOT of bonding. Crapped and had fun. Bathing water was ice-water. eeyer. damn cold. At night after we played many rounds of muderer in the dark and 007 in the guy's dorm, mdm rose gave us a good lecture and lesson on being leaders of all the leaders, and we did skits to represent what we think is most impt about leadership. it was DAMN FUNNY. Then we did many rounds of honesty tests. and discovered many truths about people that we totally dont know! eg. DIVESH LIKES SOFT TOYS. =) it was great night, and we slept quite late. afterall, its the last night.

the next day morning, we went for waterfall absailing! woah we see the waterfall we want die alrdy. waterfall's water's rushing so fast, so cold. had to climb up waterfall. then absail down. with the ice water splashing down us it's damn hard. but i didnt slip and fall this time! :D it was a cool experience. after that, we played in the super cold water at the bottom of the waterfall. it's super cold. it's like an endurance test to see how long you can stay in the water. everyone, girl or guy, is like shivering after that. only when we're walking back did we feel the sunshine on us as we talked and played and cheered.

after lunch, we went back to spore. stopped on the way couple of times for food bla bla. On all the bus rides, we cheered and played games. especially during night time on the way back to singpapore after dinner, we cheered like mad.

well everyone didnt wanna come back. council really bonded this time. it's sweet. it's beautiful, the teamwork and friendships forged. heehah! ;D

Dare to do something different.

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oh we came up with a few slogans and cheers!

to all the insects and disgusting stuff we see, or try not to see: Ignorance is bliss.

cheers:

if i were, the carpenter's son, and if i were to marry, i would marry a carpenter's daughter, more than anybody. cos she can screw, and i can screw, and we can screw together! screwing each other in the middle of the night, screwing one another!

and the list goes on. with different versions.

echo after me! In commonwealth, the girls are very cute, but if you take a closer look, they look like rubbish chute!

echo after me! In commonwealth, the girls are very tough, but if you take a closer look, they look like CURRY PUFF!

echo after me! In commonwealth, the guys are very man, but if you take a closer look, they look like hum ji pang!

echo after me! In commonwealth, the guys are very hot, but if you take a closer look, they look like roast pork!

echo after me! In commonwealth, the girls are very nice, but if you take a closer look, they look like chicken rice!

echo after me! In commonwealth, the girls are very cool, but if you take a closer look, they all look like fools!

echo after me! In commonwealth, the guys are very happy, but if you take a closer look, they all look like sissys!

And we were laughing like crap when the sexist war was on. XD

Well, there were many more cheers and stuff, but it's too much to pen down. anyway, gogogo council!

oh, and of course everyone has a fair share of bites from LEECHES, mosquitos, and other wierd insects.

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so many things are going on. troubles start coming as soon as im back and i feel like dying. what's wrong with me. it seems like nobody's there. i wanna run away. far away.

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Tuesday, November 18, 20084:47 PM
Here i am again, talking to myself.

1) council camp is tmro! :D like, finally! [& i dont give a damn if the people from HK or Hyderabad are tired ;P]

2) I am feeling sicker than bfore. ): I was better this morning, but then it became worse again. damn. );

3) I've got an acne breakout. stupid sensitive skin. ):

4) you're coming back today.

5) i'm tired. i just wanna get well.

that's the list for now.

without a word, without a sound, your heart would reverse.
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;crap
Monday, November 17, 20087:15 PM
god.
camp's on wed.
today is mon.

i am SICK.
shittttttt. how unlucky can i get.

gotta get well, gotta get well..
And i cant let my parents know.
screw. they'll kill me.

that's all i get for being in the rain.
no wonder i was feeling under the weather today.
dammit.

well. at least. i've got a blessing. =)

1 more day. 1605 miles.
I've lost count of time.

CAMP ON WED!!!!!!! ;D \

eeyer. so many things are swimming in my mind now. headache.
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; genting highlands
10:21 AM






Met qiuyuan at genting highlands. Played with her for one morning. the rest of the trip was faggin boring for me.

I was kindaf honoured, cos im one taking her to all her first times LOL.

I was the daredevil, she was the lamb. So i transformed her into the daredevil too. :D

We screamed, we played, with my sisters of course. haha.

And the sky cried. irritatin. that's a few hours gone for us already.

AND AND at that night, when i already left for KL and qiuyuan was still there, SHE SAW ZHIWEI!!!!!!!!

GOD. if only we knew he went, then the 3 of us wuddaf played like mad.

I saw a 2 other commonwealthians as well, but i dont know their names. haha.

feeling the wind and rain and mist rainin on us as we played. =)

the rest of my trip kindaf sucked cos all we did was ate and ate and ate.

And the bus broke down and there was smoke and all that. GRR. waste of my time. AHAHA.

Wish that the next time, i can go with friends. that'll be cool.

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;FLY.
Thursday, November 13, 20088:12 PM

p/s. pic above was bungee on tues HAHA.

Sweet Surprise :D
Darling said he spent over 100 sing dollars bringing back hkDisneyland for me :)))))))
Loves ♥
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; ahh.
5:49 PM
It was raining today.
I got wet, entered Air-coned places.
Got out, got wet again.
whoo~. the cold air striking against my skin.

so cold.

thought i would get sick. lol.

Have been balling alot recently these weeks.
Just wanted to vent everything out.
Don't want to think about things.

To satisfy an empty inside.

Going to malaysia tmro till sun.
Don't msg/ call. your funeral if you do.

144hours. 1605miles. 5 days.

i think you've forgotten me already :X
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; phew!
Wednesday, November 12, 20085:52 PM


We are nice people who came back to school and did CIP.

Bloody hot and tiring business.

Went to knock every door in lotsa blocks to ask for newspapers, old clothes and toys.

We were like singing:

Who are who are who are we. We are we are we are we.

the KARANG GUNI!

LOL we seriously look like them luh. We collected like every single thing. And made so many trips to and fro sch and buildings. Everyone was tired out. And when everything was dumped into the council room, the place looked like a rubbish dump. Poor yee mun and the other people who stayed on longer. But it WAS kindaf fun.

AHH. 7 more days to council camp ;D

Didnt get to go to sally's performance. Sad. ):

Did daring thing ytd--Spore G-max reverse bungee :D WHEE. FLY.

oh. and 7 more days. 1605 miles. 168 hours.

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; redefined.
Sunday, November 09, 200812:51 PM
10 days.
1605 miles.
240 hours.

before I can see you again.

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Yesterday. 3oKM!!!!!
BIG accomplishment. :D

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Have fun in hongkong, people.
DISNEYLAND!
lols.
I acting like im the one going lidat.
Screw me.
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;Evolved again! :D
Thursday, November 06, 20087:42 PM

Twilight!
Can't wait for it to come out.
Have been reading alot about it. o.o
-Tmro's BREATHE @ Padang.
-Its 3 more days till you go away.
shitty time w/o you.
You have been so patient towards me, so kind, so loving.
there's never enough words to describe how much i feel for you, about you.
12 more days to Council camp @ PAHANG.
waitwaitwait.
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; d-r-a-i-n-e-d.
Monday, November 03, 20085:13 PM
OMG IT'S A MAJOR F1 ACCIDENT!


LOL.
I'm bored.
Today was wierd.
I couldnt play bball well.
It's like i'm feeling so weak and drained.


I'm not happy with my parents 'cos they suck.
Lol.
They never did encouraged me. I had to do it all on my own.
Everything on my own.
God bless the people/ friends around me who brought me through it all.
<3>

Tomorrow I have choir.
Tomorrow the results of SOE are coming out.
Day after is mathsupp.
Day after the day after is my retest.

Fck. This week is full of challenges.

I'm scared.

Take a breath, vivian. think of how you're gonna survive.

tday morning was a sweet day.
'cos i could see you.
you're going away in 5 days. how am i suppose to smile.
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CAMP EVO!! :D
Saturday, November 01, 20081:28 PM











































AFTER CAMP EVO I'M A MORE POSITIVE PERSON. :D XD

"This is NOT an adventure camp. This is a personal leadership camp. We will not be rushing you from activity to activity, neither will there be instructors up front cheering, hyping up and entertaining you. For anything to happen in this camp, you or your team members must make it happen."

When this was said, what went through our minds were "oh shit. This camp is damn boring. I wanna go home"
However, what happened was that we did not wanna go home in the end.

This camp is totally special and different. REALLY DIFFERENT.
Couldnt emphasise the fact enough.

When were were all spilt up, as in in each team, there's only ONE member from each school, which also means you're all alone, we were all scared.

And we were rather shocked. at the behaviours of certain people.
And we had to work from there.

We did not know each other at first. at all. When the facilitator introduced us, alot of people were in their own world, were attitud-ing each other. the team held little or no interest in getting anything done. I thought we were doomed. then we had to have partners and a group name. And so were were team 1408 because we had 14 people and this is EVO'08. So we started activities. We did High Rope Elements. Rather FUN :D
Rock climbing did my fingers in though. they're swollen.
There was cheering and belaying on our part, as we cheered the people on the elements and supported them. We also had a lot of meaningful indoor activities.
It was a hardcore camp, where we had to KNOW what we were doing, and where everything depends on us alone. No decisions will be made by facils or instructors. If we wanted something, we have to get it on our own.

There was also an Angel vs Devil activity, where we battle our good and bad thoughts. It's kindaf brainwashing in a good way, and it's just..amazing.

3am that morning, it RAINED. Those sleeping in tents got WET. they could SWIM in their tents. Belongings were totally wet. People had to be transported to the hall to sleep. Shoes were wet. There was alot of shouting. Only those in the bunks were safe.
2nd day, we had alot of really fun indoor activities. We had this 'free-fall' thing, where a person has to stand on a high table, and naturally fall backwards into the arms of the fellow teamates. Really fun. Had a lot of activities in which teamates have to physically carry each other. We had to do a 'Web' activity. in which we have to go through a web course w/o touching any of the webs [which were rafia strings]. That got us really frustrated 'cos we kept touching the web. our pants kept touching the web. We wanted to give up, but persevered through. We even combined forces with another team to form a bridge and carry people over. We even had to deal with certain people who did not want to participate at all. This activity drained ALOT of our energy.

We had to fight for everything.
We even had to go through a set-back race before every meal.

On the 2nd night, we went out of the camp for dinner as a team. Ate, crapped and bonded.

We even got to go to the supermarket for essentials, but in the end everyone bought FOOD to party! 'cos its the last night. We went back. And after we were let off to rest, we partied.

Ate, told jokes and riddles to each other, sang together under the stars, all of us. And hey, this is not done in the order of teams! Everyone from diff grps just came together and had fun. We laughed, we get frustrated at the riddles, we enjoyed each other's company.
Beautiful night, and it didnt rain.

Next day, last day.
We had one last day to go all out.
Yes, we were tired. But yeah we still wanna go on.
Had 2hrs to complete 12 elements.
we were totally on our own.
Zul(who had AP at first, but changed alot for the better) became the leader. He led us through, cheered us on for every challenge, which was quite unexpected! :D
We co-operated, and still had fun.
Weather was hot so the instructor hosed us down once in awhile xD
After lunch, we had this thing called 'the WALL', in which everyone in the camp have to work together.
Great activity, got alot into tears of warmth.
Its this: we have 30mins to get 98 people over a 2 and a half storey high wall. no platform nothing. Just a plain wall with a small stand on top which can hold 4 people.

Time was running. And through 5mins the instructor stopped the watch running and said "Tell me, what have you been doing for the past 5mins. Some of you. you sit there and WAIT for things to happen. That's how you've been all your life, and will always be if you do not change."

So we started to be more eager. There's this leader at the front and he was telling us what to do, what the plan was to get the 98 people across the wall. Instructor stopped the time. He asked us to look at the hands of that guy and asked him to keep talking. Then he stopped that guy from talking again, and said. "LOOK AT HIS HAND. WHAT IS HIS HAND DOING."

Someone mumbled " Shivering."

Instructor: YES. HE IS SHIVERING. AT LEAST THIS GUY HAS THE BALLS TO STAND UP HERE TO FEEL SCARED, TO LEAD EVERYONE. WHAT ABOUT THE REST OF YOU. YOU SIT THERE AND LET OTHERS DECIDE FOR YOU. IS IT GOING TO BE LIKE THIS FOR YOU."
He scolded us severely. and what he said did make sense.
He started the watch running again.

And suddenly the power of everyone just emerged. Everyone just became damn hiong and just pulled everyone up. We were organised, of course. Shorted ones on one side, taller ones on the other. everyone was spotting and supporting and pulling and yelling and cheering. The atmposphere was loud and beautiful. Everyone just worked together. We never stopped. We did whatever we could, all of us, not matter who we were.

We did it in the end.
And we couldnt have done it without each other at all.

The scene was really touching.
98 people, who didnt know each other at all, from totally different backgrounds.
Come together, and make things happen.
it's better than all the magic in the world put together.
So amazing.

The day was ending. the time was passing. We had a talk by this person who has been in prison for 10 years and yet succeeded in craving a career for himself after he was released. Everyone was tired.
Then it was the farewell time.
we got a cert, shirt and some stuffs.

Coloured stones were given to us. And we had to give the stones to people we appreciated. I wanted to give them to so many people. But there wasnt enough. ><>
A lot of us wanted to cry just then, as the camp was coming to an end.
I loved it, I didnt wanna go home.
Even the people who hated the camp, the people who were having challenges in their lives, who was on the wrong path, admitted that they wanted to stay longer.
This camp was to put student leaders and people facing challenges together, and see what happens.
it's really crazily and beautifully amazing.
Muscles aching, mosquito bites, fingers swollen, basic conditions of campsite-life,
but we loved it.
New friendships are forged, memories and success are made, and even though it's over, and it wont be the same again, i hope the camp, and 1408, will stay in everyone's hearts.
i hate to come back to reality .
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