;sharp,pain.
words like thunder jolt me awake.
im being stupid.
how can i be thinkin about the far future?
but then again, it's what comforts me.
then then again, im being stupid again.
that's what i always am.
Stupid questions. why did i have to ask them.
Just 'cos of the stupid curiosity burning in me.
so 'tis true that curiosity kills the cat.
i feel like punchin somethin now i havent quite decide what.
this post is full of rambling that i just have to get off my chest.
bloggin keeps me in control. ahh i dont know wth im talking about.
im not done tryin and yet i know that im a failure wth am i talking about im just a screwed
person with nothing good in her. failure. never be able to succeed. then again hey! why am i putting myself down i'm not that bad am i what the hell i am set out to achieve my dreams and do what i want and i will but i dont know im losing confidence in myself ahh sec 3 is coming and im super lousy i'll not be able to cope ahh so little gals in my class and with the so busy scheldue im feeling super insecure and in need. ahh wth everyone else is going through the same stuff as me maybe im just taking it too hard ahh LOL wth am i talking once again my mind is screwed up. and sch's reopenin n i hate it and i just wish that u'd treat me sweetly again. bang. im filled with bullets.
cry to death.
lol. screammmmmmm.
in control.