okay, i know what im gonna say makes me sounds like a small kid/brat, but..

I HATE SCHOOL AND I DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL TMRO.

there, you have it.

shit man i hate going back to school.
:X

screw school.
stupid channel news asia cheat our feelings.
F.

i didnt do ANY homework.
there's nt gonna be youth day celebration or anything tmro!
only the AYG, and we've gotta watch from our classes.
and some classes cant even see 'cos the run's gonna take place around the blocks on the different levels of classrooms.
those who cant see only can listen to the emcees commentating.

SCREW H1N1.

*RIP MJ. you've done great to the world, and you're a good guy. you've brought something great to the world--your music. you'll always be remembered for being the king of pop and not other stuff.
God Bless You.

BACK FROM OBS.


Quite fun.
VERY VERY VERY tiring.


i'm lazy to blog xD
pictures will come soon when i kope from others. xD


Our watches were named after famous explorers.
my watch's called Cousteau.
He's a diver who discovered the diving suit.


there were other watches. examples are Battuta, Cook, Junko, Livingstone, Raffles, Nila Utama, Da Gama, etc etc.
quite cool. on the first day, there was mainly packing and all the admin stuff. We've got our own stores which contains all our equipment. quite cool.


we didnt know each other too well, so there were conflicts.
but after a while, day by day, we get to know each other better and better, things got much better too.
anyway, we had to pitch A-man tents. Every night, we change to a new campsite.


On the second day, we did rock-climbing and trekking to another campsite. we also did some drill for kayaking.
For kayaking, we learnt how to capsize and escape, learnt how to empty water out of the boat in deep waters when someone capsizes. fun.
I made it to the top for rock climbing! :D not without the help of my team mates duh. cheering me on and all.
Trekking was HELL.
we left our first campsite and was not gonna go back all the way till thurs. which means we had to pack all our supplies and carry them with us everywhere.

We trekked, with our SUPER HEAVY bagpacks. some bags were loaded with our food supply, some with our tents, some with the supply of 2 people's personal items.
it was our first time with the backpack and it was horrible. it was only about 2km and we were dying.


On the third day, we went trekking AGAIN. this time, it's our expedition.
we trekked about 7 plus km! that, is super hell. i seriously almost broke down
Our instructors gave us the toughest route.
We had to find different checkpoints.
and we had to read maps and find the way there ourselves.
so we found ourselves scrapping through terrain, mud and leaves in the dense jungle.
it's super hard and the bags were heavy.
at first, i tried not to think about it. Belle, Azri and I were like singing songs to distract ourselves.
the hill we scaled had NO FOOTPATH, so we gotta dig our way through everything.
and we got lost on the way down.

and it started raining.

and we had to drag our heavy ponchos and all.

backpacks were killing us.
that's when I and some others started to lose some motivation. D:
Anyway, we found our way out in the end.
and when we reached our campsite we screamed like mad with joy.

just feels, so great.
we didnt get to bathe that night.


On the fourth day, we loaded our kayaks early before the sun rose.
we set off, and kayaked.
I kayaked with Amirtha, and I was darn worried cos we were both girls and worried that we couldnt pull through the strong waves.

Anyway, we went.
Initially i was darn frustrated cos our kayak couldnt go straight.
poor amirtha had to bear with all my 'OMG's and other swear words.
soon, we discovered that we can do it!
and i feel damn proud cos im sitting at the back, hence controlling the whole kayak, sterring and all, and doing the job of a guy partner. :D


it's really tiring.

Anyway, we had a super special dinner.
Next day, we packed up, and just left.
Boon Teck's right.
All of these will eventually become just memories.

I'm really glad to have this team.
Natasha, Cheryl, Azri--the parents of the team, always willing to rip their brains for this team.
Zack, tweetybird, Amritha--always so ever willing to help 24/7!
Mus--THE backstage man. Always running about helping out the team.
Belle, Nicole, Ken Yong, Jeanette--always there to give us support and full motivation no matter what the situation is like, no matter how tired they are.
Dao, Santhosh--always there to help, always there to make us laugh.
Quack--always happens to be there.
Adhar, Nishanth--always there to split our sides with jokes, here to rescue when we need help!
& of course, Li Peng and Abidin--BEST instructors who challenge us with lotsa stuff.

Like what Natasha said, it's not the end, it's the start of our new friendships. :D
COUSTEAU, here we go!

is it worth it to give up one's life for another?

i kept thinking of that qs, but don't get an answer.

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I missed times when im involved in big gatherings.
i seem to have missed out so much.
it's sad.

sacrifice.


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AYG today. quite okay. lol. 3 more days to go.
omg my bowling sucks.
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i couldnt believe you did this to me.

From 'A walk to remember'

Landon: Are you frightened?
Jamie: Yeah, i always am.
Landon: Then why don't you act like it?!
Jamie: 'Cos i know you're afraid too.

It's a very touching book man.
It can make you smile in front, and make you cry at the end.
literally.
Those who are not interested in books, watch the movie.
though it's already very old, still, it's nice.
it breaks your heart.

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Land of the Lost is a good movie for laughs.
it can make you laugh till you split your sides. xD

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It's the end of the 2nd week of holidays already. Can you believe that?
Time FLIES. literally.
Everything's almost over. The start of horror is coming very soon, as school reopens.
Honestly, i dread it.

There are so many exciting things that i thought i could do in this holiday, but i didnt have a chance. It's darn sad.
All i can do is look at pictures of the past.
):
At least, there's a few fab things that happened in the hols--that i would never forget.

There goes all the fun. 3rd and 4th week is not fun at all.
OBS? now im beginning to think that it's gonna be horror++.
3rd week, is homework and boring week.

GAH. frustrating how time flies, right?
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Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse,to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.

you're the truest essence of that very description.

m'dear said that i was a troubled kid and ruffled my hair.

i looked down on the floor and focused on those squared tiles. perhaps,i thought.

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We sat in the convention hall for goodness how long.
Listened to endless of powerpoint presentations. i bet i've never listened to so many at a go before.
turns out that there are so many people there who turned up for the AYG training that it was 'more than encouraged'. *rolls eyes.
And people from nanyang girls get to do impt stuff while we're ushers in charge of movement.
some sort of bias-ness and discrimination. Lol. I dont know. but i felt so.
and that guy was like 'smart people will be stationed at xxx station'.
Like...w-what? We're deemed dumb? somesort of society.

but anyway that's how the bubble bursts.
so many of us looked forward to it. but in the end..yuck.
urgh.

ah, now the OBS peeps (+me) are worried that we wont even get to participate in this and have to find our own way of CIP. screw the organisation. even the way they told us about this was mean. they were like 'those who cant, get out of this room'. like, who are they to tell us off? like it was our fault. blame the school for spamming activities that most people dont even get a break.

LOL. enough of complaining.
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Love will find its way.
man i feel like a no-lifer. how could one week have passed already?

Long time no post.

Holidays so far have been terrible. not started on hwk, projects. blabla etc etc never ending.

i want OUT. god.

xD

emceed with siti for syf night.
went okay though we screwed up a lil but who cares.

great experience though. it's fun with siti. i dont think i'd get a chance to emcee with her again ): Gah.

I missed the fun times people had together, that i had with people.
hurts to think that those times might never come back.
i wanna revive them, but yet i dont know how to.

im feelin terrible cos im stuck at my family chalet and im bored to pieces. All i wanna do is go home. get outta here.


*And as the saying goes: Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

I totally get it.