Thank You, Dear God.

God please bless me.

I've been alone so many nights now
And I've been waiting for the stars to fall
I keep holding out for what I don't know
To be with you
Just to be with you
So here I am, staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too
To be with you... there's nothing I wouldn't do
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet I'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you
Just to be holding you for the very first time,
Never letting go
What I wouldn't give to feel that way
Oh, to be with you
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause he will have answered every single prayer

To be with you

Just to be with you.

I'd never get the chance again.

The wide smile faded, changed to a frown, a look of disappointment, 'cos i know there wouldn't be a next time.

you.

My instant reaction was 'damn', but all i could do was smile and say 'that's cool.'

i miss miss miss miss my hair.
D:

my hair was re-trimmed after some dumb vp told me that it's unacceptable. F----.
Damn pissed with her.

NOW I LOOK MORE LIKE _______________.

Oh gosh.

Say goodbye to looking fine for 6 months!? wtf.

++interview and awards day and my ugly hair!? dead. gone.

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I hate my parents. and i hate going home. hate hate hate them all.
seriously, if not for my sisters, i'd pack my bag and get the hell outta here.
MANN, as if not supporting me is not enough.
You still had to demoralise, scream, scold.
Well honestly, i'm not the least bit afraid of you.
In fact, these things you do make me loathe you more and more each day.
Your childish threatens make me laugh. Don't you think you can squash me.
Okay i wish im living in a hostel. or something. anywhere. just out of this place i call a house but not a home.

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i'm tired. super tired. but i cant sleep.
as if i havent wasted enough time.

Today during Junwei's birthday party i made a stupid comment to the girls.
saying that
'I am going to cut my hair short'

Now i totally absolutely regret my rashness.
my hair is f__g ugly now.
I look like a guy.

I shall be very very brave and go to school tomorrow, and if people who see me laugh, i'd just keep quiet.
"laugh then laugh lo."

Argh. I hate myself. I hate short hair.

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I don't know if I could ever forgive you. I swore that i'd never let you back in.

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secret addiction. secret drug. ~

I don't know why, but literally every single thing i do or see, reminds me of you.
GAH. driving me nuts.
So near, yet so far.

Okay i know im not supposed to be here blogging..but..
just a lil crazy indulgence here. heh.

When you have nothing, you realise that memories are the only things that keep you alive.

can't stop thinking.

AH, going nuts.