A brand new year.
As people usher in the new year, I have this indescribable pain in my heart.
It feels that Life is Over.
Felt weird when people text: Happy New Year!
Somehow, I do not feel very happy.
I keep looking back, and think about what we've lost.
(At least, the seaylp participants felt that way. now we have to tell people: we went to usa LAST YEAR.)
Like, welcome to hell.