Oh gosh.

Life has indeed been hard these days :/

I'm having trouble coping.

And lotsa stuff inflicting on me recently.
perhaps even on old wounds, if you get what i mean.

And Ohmy,

Exams are comin real fast.
I'm not even prepared A BIT.

And i just wasted my sat slacking wth.

I feel like kicking myself.
C'mon! whre's the discipline!

I dont know why, but i keep feeling SO tired.
even if i sleep at 10.30.

I seriously need a break.

Right now, all i can think of are the things that are gonna happen AFTER exams
which are gonna be SO fufilling and living unlike now.
the stupid drone and sight of books. books. and more books.

AH. MIND POWER. CONCENTRATE. I SO CANT WAIT.

i've been laughing in class with the people too much already.
HAHA. but i swear it's damn funny.

GOLD WITH HONOURS for the CSSCHOIR!!!!

WE DID IT.
WE DID THE IMPOSSIBLE.

I'm HAPPY. EVERYONE's happy. :D

We did it.
It's been so long.
the road's been so long.
but we did it.

We were afraid.
Surprisingly, we DIDNT RUSH!!!!! :D
We just treated the stage like our music room.
And everything's normal.

:D

AHH.
WE ROCK.

"Sing like there's no tomorrow." was what was advised to us.
We did just that.
And we did it.

Gave what we had.
Gave it our all.

Had a great performance.
After the performance, We cheered like mad outside VCH.
Conductor Mr Foong came out and said we did a great job.

Then, KWEI came out. and gave us TWO THUMBS UP and said HE'S PROUD OF US WHEN HE HEARD US SING. :DDD
We cheered and screamed like mad.

Nobody can taste the taste of accomplishment, the taste of rewards after hardwork, for us.
Nobody can really know what we've gone through.

Cos it's us, and only we know.

Live to sing. We live to sing.

This was an extract from the Choir Forum, which judges choirs during SYFs and just, choirs in S'pore luh:

'Commonwealth Sec Sch

Jaakobin isot pojat (the sons of Jacob)
Ashita wa Hare Kana Kumori Kana

Prediction: GwH / H G

I always liked gold ties, which the guys are wearing. Anw the choir's huge, and thus able to carry a wide range of dynamics, it's a surprisingly good performance of the set piece with very well controlled phrasing. I was worried when I saw 'Jaakobin' as one of the choice pieces, but they do it well! Pitch was accurate at most parts, and is pretty impressive. Ladies and gentlemen, I would say a potential contender for gold with honours. The chords are good, but they went sharp, still a darn good job! Last piece is delicate, very mature sound for a choir so young, the phrasing and dynamics are well-controlled. The sound forces u to breathe in sync with them, it was magic! I'd say, "Gold with honours"!!!!'

"They made us breathe their music"

:D

I prayed. We worked so hard. We prayed so hard.
Everything we've worked for.
My only syf.

CSSchoir.
We live to sing.

As i heard the screaming from downstairs, while having my council meeting. My heart started thudding very very fast. When it was finally over and i rushed out, i just flung myself over the railing and yelled 'what is it!?' And when i heard GWH I screamed like mad and just flew downstairs, threw my bag onto the floor and hugged everyone.

09. =) sweet taste of victory.

SYF's tmro.
Finally.
D-day.

Are you guys ready?

YES. xD

Walk in the hall, remember that feeling, remember that you're part of the CSSchoir, remember the honour and legacy our seniors have left us with, be proud as you walk in. remember that the whole choir's with you, and you're never alone. Remember all the notes that your SLs have painstakingly taught you. Remember the endless months,hours of singing, of practice.
All for tomorrow.

Do not be afraid.
It's just people, it's just the stage, it's just the judges.
Be what we can be. Shine like the stars at that moment.
Treasure the moment. Sing like there's no tomorrow. Do not rush.
Sing through the notes, be precatious of every detail.

Be what we can be.

Tmro's the day, guys, all that we're working for.

JY!

We rock, no matter what we've done.
We bring the house down (:

Have a good night's rest, people.
Drink water!
you guys better not be hardworking for ONCE.
do NOT come to school in the morning mann.
We'd be damn tired.

Remember, everyone matters. (:

<3

This week has been a really really hectic one.

Rush hour.

Lots of stuff have happened.

Walk on the red carpet, alongside Teoh Wenqi, with nice music playing.
Speech. Taking the oath.
Hard handshake and pat on the back from Rafiq, who came back with the other seniors.

Breathe a sigh of relief.

And stopped again when i think of the 365 days i have to go through.

hoho.

Call me Vivian, not the P-word!
I need everyone's guidance down the path. it's hard.

SYF IS COMING IN 5 DAYS.

Are we prepared?
Till today, we're still getting wrong notes.
that is very, very worrying.
Will we be able to live through that legacy and standard the seniors have set for us?
Everyone's worried.
That award. So near and yet so far.
Hardwork.
Hardcore Hardwork.
We're willing. For that very honour.

Seniors stressed.
Juniors afraid.
I hope everyone's in THAT mood now.
it only goes to show how much it matters to us. how much we want it.

It's the last stretch.
Give it your all.
It's our calling, we know that!
Do not look back and regret.

Last stretch. Push it on.

it's breaking me apart.