My best friend gave me the best advice

He said each day's a gift and not a given right

Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind

And try to take the path less traveled by

That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late

Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?

Leave old pictures in the past

Donate every dime you have?

If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life

What's worth the prize is always worth the fight

Every second counts 'cause there's no second try

So live like you'll never live it twice

Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late

Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?

Leave old pictures in the past

Donate every dime you have?

Would you call old friends you never see?

Reminisce of memories

Would you forgive your enemies?

Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?

Swear up and down to God above

That you finally fall in love

If today was your last day

If today was your last day

Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?

You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars

Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes

'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life

Let nothin' stand in your way

Cause the hands of time are never on your side

okay hi everyone.
i know i havent blogged in decades, so now i suddenly dont know what to write about.

life has been..a drag.

i dont know.

okay i needa go do the darn swcdc project.

nicole and i had a super hard time filming at pasir panjang wholesale market.
imagine going there in the hot weather and having to interview people.

so now qiuying and bin are watching this korean drama series omg.

haha. tata for now.

Exasperation.

I'm sure all of us have been in this part of life once or more than once.
this point when you just feeling like throwing both hands up and screaming
"I GIVE UP!"
or wrenching your arms towards the sky with a burst of long-abhorred and accumulated anger and screaming
"WHY IS IT SO UNFAIR"

I bet all of us have these times.

This was just a little of how i felt today.
today was a terrible day, right from head to tail.

Flunked. flunked. flunked.
I told myself before i went to bed yesterday that whatever it is today, i would take it calm.
But that didnt quite happen for some reason.
I was tearing and ripping apart inside.
Just folded at a corner, feeling very small, even having pity for myself.
mann. this sucks. i was thinking:
"there's only so much i can take."

i just kept comforting myself. felt so small.
and useless.

Why had i become so dumb now.
why.

i just can't let the fact go, that im so dumb.

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First thing in the morning.
gawd, i screamed at council :/

and ended up breaking out in sobs.
Argh.

I didnt expect myself to react that way at all.

I just had too much on my mind, too many things to say.

urgh.
i need a break. we all do. a pity its not gonna come.

I feel like i fell into a hole. so deep that it seems impossible to climb back up again.
that it's cold and scary. encaved in that boundary.

i hate boundaries, and yet ive grown so used to it.

thats all for about now.

You can't kick me down.
'cos i'm already on the ground.

i'm torn.
i'm tired.
i'm sick of everything.

exams, please spare me. fly past quick before i breakdown.
i cant manage and hold it all in my hands.
exams, you're just another one of my big problems.
i can do without you.

stupid stupid stupid. argh. scream.